How things go…

As I watch the counter on Scruples remain the same in the sidebar, I struggle to not feel frustrated at my lack of writing.

But yes, Scruples is on hiatus as I write the shifter story, which I’ve done about 2-4K on since the beginning of the year. However…

Mostly this month has been focused on heavy edits for HtPD, which eats up a lot of time as I rework sentences, add details, and sometimes add entire scenes. And when I’m in editing mode, I’m not as great at being in writing mode. Something I need to work on. Yet HtPD has gotten an additional 1,000 words and I’m only just over the halfway point. So while my other stories may have briefly stalled, I at least have been busy.

But my ultimate goal is to read a book for work, read a book for pleasure, edit a book for pleasure, and write a book, and keep all the characters separate and in my head, keep all the facts straight, and remember who belongs in what story.

No pressure, right?

Updates, Panicking, and Knitting

First off, Sharing a Pond has now been out a week. You can find it on Less than Three Press’s website, Amazon, Barnes & Noble, Kobo, All Romance ebooks, etc, etc.

You can also find a short side story on Joyfully Jay. This isn’t in the main story, it’s just a fun little side bit. And there’s a giveaway, so check it out!

Okay, enough PR BS 🙂

If you’ve been following me on Twitter, you know I’ve been working on a short story, which isn’t my usual stuff. It mostly came about because I said, “Hey, I want to write a short story.” I checked out what pubs had what calls for anthologies, found one I liked, then whipped up 7K to go with it.

I love writing novels, but sometimes the immensity of it makes it difficult. For my writing group, it’s hard for them to see the larger pictures and work with me on plot, pacing, and climactic moments when they’re only seeing 1K at a time. While they aren’t going to see this in its entirety before I send it out (because I picked one with a Jan 1 deadline, because ME), I can easily read through this story and nitpick it (and fix it, hopefully). So it’s not only working muscles I haven’t used in a while, but it’s also a good exercise for getting my brain to look at the plot and fix it.

I’m also not expecting AMAZING THINGS out of the story. It’s not meant to be great literature or high-brow fiction. It’s supposed to be fun and cute and sweet. (Which is the shit I LOVE, so you’d think I’d write more of it 😛 )

So the 7K is written. Now I just need to sit on it a week (while I do the developmental edits that came in that I’m not panicking about at all. Nope. Not at all. Not panicking. Not even a little.) And then I’ll read through and see if it’s utter shit and if it’s not then I guess do self-edits because I’m guessing I won’t get a beta reader.

Oh, and did you know the holidays are coming up? I survived Thanksgiving, so that just means Christmas and New Years. And Amy Lane keeps posting fun knitting patterns that I want to try. AND I’m trying to use up all my extra yarn from the Christmas stocking I made, by making a Christmas shawl.

Oh, and I have 3 beta feedbacks in (with one more coming, not to mention the R&R that’s been sitting around for a year or so…). I may have put too much on my plate. But I wouldn’t be Alex if I didn’t!

10,600

That’s how many words I wrote in the month of September. My monthly goal is 5K, so that’s double (does that mean I get to take October off?). And I’m excited about it because I’m enjoying both stories I’m working on, PLUS I wrote that much while riding, having a horse show, having a life (Hey, don’t laugh!), and working full-time.

And yes, I’m sure other people manage all those things AND 50K a month, but that’s not me.

Speaking of which…No, I won’t be participating in NaNo this year. But maybe I’ll try to hit 10K again. We’ll see. That’s a month away.

For now, it’s writing rehabbing rock stars, dorky asexual college students, and knitting a Christmas stocking for my parents.

Because that’s how cool people spend their Saturday nights.

Updates, now with pictures!

January, like every other month, flies by. I’ve been keeping busy with the writing (hit my word count goal!), making submissions, making freebies, and then looking at my spreadsheet and crying quietly 😛

My 5,000 words for January mostly went into finishing the BDSM short and writing a new ending for BAW (just finished that this morning). The short needs to sit, because I feel like it’s, well, too short. I’m sure when I return to it with fresh eyes I’ll find five a few thousand more words to add. For BAW, I need to start at the beginning and do some serious chopping out of unnecessary scenes tightening all the bits into a good story. So that will be my new week-day project.

On the weekends, when I actually can write (because I haven’t found a good way to get my brain to write during the weekdays), I’ll be rewriting a story I wrote a long time ago. I love the story and the setting and the concept, but I have a fight scene that takes four lines at one point. It’s one of those things that just needs to be trashed and re-written, although much of it will remain the same.

And I have my trust ol’ writing mug with me, of course.

You can see it, because it’s imprinted, but it says “fresh-brewed inspiration for the day ahead.” And this technically has hot chocolate in it. Don’t judge.

The book I read in January was Fifty Shames of Earl Grey by Fanny Merkin, which was amusing and had moments that were laugh-out loud, but didn’t blow me off my feet, either. It was playful and cute and I could see the moments where events in the ‘original’ were turned on their head and mocked, but it also didn’t rely upon having read the source material. Which is good, because I only got about halfway through the first before I returned it to the library.

That said, people who read the books (painfully) might enjoy this more. It was a quick read, too, which mean I was able to fit in another short book (book 1 of The Crimson Spell), which I’ve read before but am trying to read the whole series now that they are actually being translated.

Artwork by DA ID Hinata141

While it’s sort of porny, especially in the beginning, the art is gorgeous (if you like the detailed style), and from what I remember of the story, the plot begins to pick up as the story continues. Also, the one main character turns into a hot demon covered in black markings. Mmm.

The story is focused on a young prince who takes up a cursed sword in order to save his people from invading demons, but now he’s, well, cursed. He travels afar to a wizard who promises to help him break the spell, and thus their journeys together begin! The prince only turns into a demon sometimes (mostly at night?) and the wizard finds ways to…restrain him. And…keep him distracted.

If you know what I mean.

Now to spend the rest of the weekend being productive!

Right?

August, Not Too Bad

August’s goals1. Apply what I learned from Code Academy into a website project.
2. 1,000 more words written
3. Review HtPD and see if it can become something. Currently it’s super short so it either needs to get more written for it to stand alone, or I need to hunt down an anthology for it to fit into.

August is flying by just as fast as the other months. It’s my birthday month, so you’d think it’d give me some leniency. Nope. I’ve been house-sitting for my parents and my brother, plus I went to Otakon (an anime convention). It’s been a bit crazy 🙂 But I haven’t fallen completely down on the job.

1. Okay, this hasn’t gotten any work done. See above craziness. I have a feeling this is going to fall by the wayside, because writing and editing are more important right now.

2. Yep. I didn’t keep exact track, but I’m pretty sure I’ve hit this mark already. Woo! The story I’m working on is slow going and kind of mellow, but I’m hoping once the drama starts, then the pace will fly by.

3. I sent HtPD to a beta reader and got some positive feedback, so I want to move forward with it. I’m not sure I can get the longer word count I need to make it into something, and it’s too short even for most anthologies, although I think they might let it slide for that. I just sent it to another reader and will await her verdict to see if I can squeeze a few thousand or more words out of this sucker.

So that’s that. While I didn’t set many goals for this month, I’ve been doing plenty off-screen (generally editing, writing, and scrounging up submissions for HtPD…and taking care of various households).

And because I just finished cooking it, here’s some homemade applesauce (I leave the peels on for…health reasons. Yeah, not because I’m super lazy).

July? You’re kidding me…

June’s goals
1. Finish BAW (edits and at least start fleshing out the ending).

One goal. One not-that-big goal.

Okay, so it’s not completely true.
I didn’t FAIL. I did finish reading through and doing rough edits. However, once I completed that, I just flat-lined.

And I swear there was a DNR lying around or something. Because there was no life in my pen this month. And it just flew by.

So I got the edits done, wrote the first line of the rest of the damn thing, but haven’t done the major reworking that needs done. So it’ll probably be on this coming month’s list.

I’ve also begun a new venture, which will probably take some of my time up, and I want to start learning computer coding, because it’s useful and could be good for some future plans. AKA, I’m piling more things on my plate than I can possibly handle. And I still haven’t gotten in touch with the local writers’ group.

July’s goals
1. Finish one level of Code Academy – That’s 6 hours of stuff, so it’s a mouthful, but hopefully I won’t choke.

2. Read a new, nonwork-related book. Just one. I mostly have been rereading old favorites and stuff for work. And I’ll even count rereading books that I read a long time ago (pre-accident) and no longer remember.

3. Work on side project of mystery goal.

4. Write a thousand words OR prep a story for submission. Oh yeah, I do that sometimes, don’t I?

I’m hoping lots of smaller goals will help me complete them, now that I’m getting in the rhythm of my new life.

May already?

April’s goals
1. Do light edits/clean up 2 shorter stories and find beta readers to see if they are worth seeing the light of day.
2. Work on BAW, which I just printed out. That’s kind of a monster of a task, since I need to write the end and reevaluate the whole thing. Cue weeping.
3. Get out to the barn more and actually get on a horse. For the first time in nearly 2 years.


Okay.

1. I only got to one, but it needed a lot more text added, so I think that counts. And it can’t go to a beta because I want to do another read since I added so much. I think that was pretty solidly done.

2. I’m a little over halfway done my read on this. It definitely needs a lot of work, so this will be ongoing, but I made fairly good progress. Not as much as I would have liked, but progress.

3. Did it. Yay! Unfortunately there is going to be a hiccup in my insurance coverage soon, so that may interfere with more riding for a bit.

May’s goals

1. Finish 1st reads on BAW. Maybe start developing things.

2. Finish current 2 knitting projects.

I have a lot going on in my personal life right now (job change, mainly), so that’s all I’m aiming for in May. Knitting has been a good relaxant for me, although I wasn’t really using it much. I feel like I want to do more, but things are so out of sorts right now that pushing more seems like I’d be pushing myself for failure. I’m feeling rather tenuous as is, so let’s leave it at that.

Stuff. And Things

Just so you know I’m still here…

I’m feeling a little better, most days. At the beginning of July I had a streak of shitty days, but I’ve had a week of fairly good days, so we’ll see.

I’ve been doing some writing, hopping between stories in a confusing way which doesn’t particularly make me happy, but I’m not going to argue with the muses.

I edited a story that I’m debating submitting, but I’m torn. I’m not sure it’s as good as my other stuff, and it’s kind of an odd piece. I know I should probably send it to a beta, but then I have to dig up a beta. So, if anyone likes to beta sort of YA books, then I have something for you 😉

Other than that I’ve done edits on a collection of short stories that I was considering doing a slapdash self-publish thing for (through SmashWords), but may just post it on FictionPress. I haven’t decided.

I’m still waiting to hear back for the one submission (I’m really hoping it won’t take until October), and other than that it’s just some wacky stories, one of which probably won’t ever sell, one which may sell if I can finish it, and one which I’m not sure where it’s going.

Guess we’ll see.

Not too lost

So I went through another read of Kin#1, wrote the -bleeeep- summary, have the email prepared…and now I just want to re-read the summary for any totally idiotic statements and then I’ll send it off. UGH.

Meanwhile, I’ve been working on a shifter story, because they decided they wanted to play (or at least they did until tonight when every sentence I hobbled together sounded terrible). I’m sure part of it is just the mood I’m in at the moment, so updates to come.

Otherwise things in the writing/reading world have been quiet. I’m creating enough emotional turmoil in my own life, I don’t need it in stories at the moment, it seems. -sigh-

Word Counts and Weariness

So anyone who follows me…anywhere probably hears a lot of complaining coming from my mouth. I try not to, but right now my body is in an unhappy place and it leads to whining. My recuperation has been a frustrating dance of one step forward, two steps back. I thought I was feeling 90% better and then I got bad news and got dumped back at 75%.

I’m pretty much in some sort of discomfort, whether it’s my lower back, my neck/shoulders, my eyes, my head, or (new this week!) my jaw. The days these complaints are minor, I feel good. Then other days I’m exhausted just by waking up (not even getting out of bed). I’m tired, all the time.

But I’m working (it’s baby steps) on being more positive. Remembering the good things that happen during the day. Remembering the things I can still do.

One thing that helps, some days at least, is a new word count goal. 100 words a day. That’s easy, right? I’ve only missed one day so far (after working a full day and being absolutely exhausted). So it’s easy and feasible and if what I wrote is utter shit, I don’t feel bad deleting it because it’s only 100 words. And most days once I start I feel good and get more than 100. That is a nice feeling, even when I’m just working on a free piece of fiction 🙂

Because even if it’s small progress, at least it’s always progress.