Month: February 2009

Transformation

/ Alex Whitehall / Leave a comment

I know, it’s been 10 whole days since I posted, it must be a miracle. Or something.

I haven’t really be interested in much lately; it’s like I’ve gone into hibernation. I think the winter has worn me a little thin and I can only hope that spring will bring my rejuvenation.

I only have one, maybe two, more chapters to write before it’s “done.” Of course how I end this story alters how I begin the next one, if I make it so there is another one. It seems rude to my readers to end my first book on a cliffhanger, but I also don’t want a “everything worked out” ending.

Also, I changed perspectives for part of the book and I’m wondering if I should change back for the end or just keep the one I have, since the second book is written in it. Of course, I wrote the story in the original perspective so far as well (just so I could get a feel of what she was going through) so I could just stick with it completely (though it would cut out 2 or 3 chapters).

Mer. Wake me up inside!

I hope I make you cry, a little.

/ Alex Whitehall / Leave a comment

It’s snowing outside, I’ve just eaten Andes Mint Chocolate Chip Ice Cream, and I sit down to write the aftermath of the battle. Honestly, the next few chapters (and possibly another book) will be about the aftermath, but this is the first chapter, where we change perspectives and realize that people have died.

I was sad already, it being Valentine’s Day and me being single, not in the 1.0 vs 1.1 way, but in the 1 vs 1.0 way. Which may not make sense to you, but makes perfect sense to me. It’s all about the place holder. So I was sad.

And then I’m writing about people having died and how horrible it is to have to handle corpses to send them off to loved ones. But I feel content with how things are going. Although I know a funeral chapter is going to have to happen and I’m not particularly looking forward to it. I hope I cry and I hope the readers cry, whenever they get a chance to read it. In 12 years.

So it was still snowing, and I ate more ice cream, and I realized I should share this, even if it’s just with myself.

For V-day

/ Alex Whitehall / Leave a comment

I figured I’d post something V-day related, even though I’m dismally single.

So here it is, My Beautiful Disease:

You make my congenital defect flutter;
flushing my face with Scarlet fever,
I can’t breathe when I’m around you
unable to recall the words.

My chest constricts, my stomach twists
just seeing you walk in the room.
And if it kills me, I’ll die euphoric,
your drug running through my veins.

You say that I’m frozen

/ Alex Whitehall / Leave a comment

“Everything will slip away
Shattered pieces will remain
When memories fade into emptiness
Only time will tell its tale
If it all has been in vain”

~ Within Temptation, “Frozen”

I finally hammered out the “battle scene” for my story. *huff* Not sure if it’s any good, but it’s done. And now we’re going to find out why Ms. Wilkins is so damn important 🙂

Otherwise, just really tired and not up to doing anything at the moment. *sigh*

Sitting before work

/ Alex Whitehall / Leave a comment

I’m sitting with my bowl of oatmeal before work, taking a deep breath and relaxing.

It’s going to be cold today, well, colder than other days, but this weekend is supposed to be beautiful and warm, which I’m really looking forward to.

I’m glad it’s Thursday, but I really wish it were Friday. Though compared to some weeks, it’s not too bad that it’s Thursday. I still have two more interviews to conduct for my article on the Wii’s use in “old folks homes”–I’m using that phrase only because it’s used in a wide variety of facilities. I’m finding them easy to do, but still nervous-making. One day I’ll be as confident as my coworkers–maybe :D.

Because I’m insanely busy this weekend (Friday: going to see Coraline, then hang out with friends; Saturday: Ride then go hang out with friends, shopping; Sunday: Ride and then maybe some deserved relaxation), I’m going grocery shopping tonight, which is odd to me, but the best time. But I’m trying to make miracles happen with pennies, so it’s always an adventure.

From Great Heights We Shall Fall

/ Alex Whitehall / Leave a comment

My weekend was pretty good. Friday I got together with friends; Saturday I rode and got needed shopping done; Sunday I rode and got more shopping done since my family came down with illness. Today started off pretty good until I found out my company has been laying off again and cutting hours. I keep hearing the phrase, “I’m sure everyone knows how bad the economy is” and I want to snort and say “no, I don’t. I don’t follow the news and listen to the crippling information that our economy is going to hell because some people made bad decisions and we have to pay to fix it.

I’m glad to have my job and be working, no matter how much I hate working (in a general sense) sometimes. I’m glad to be able to pay my bills and be able to eat and all that stuff. But sometimes I wonder if I buy too many things that are frivolous that I wouldn’t need. I question doing cosplay for Otakon this year, because do I really need to spend all that money on a costume I’ll wear once? And not just one, but two (and technically 3, because I may closet cosplay).

I know you can’t just curl up and not spend any money, because that doesn’t help the economy either, but what’s the limit? Where is the line between saving too much and spending too much?

Tonight was spent writing (1 hr) and watching Big Bang Theory (since I purchased season 1 on DVD). It didn’t help that one of the episodes I watched tonight had Penny being broke and unable to pay her bills, etc. I can’t honestly remember if it was new or first season, since they were all intermingled, but it doesn’t really matter.

I wish I was in a job with absolute job security, or at least in a field with it? Or maybe I would always be paranoid. Sometimes I think what I do is pointless, but then I realize not everyone can do it. But then people say things like “Yeah, but you understand it still” and I wonder, well, is grammar going to fade away and die? Then I think about phrases like the panda who “eats, shoots, and leaves” vs “eats shoots and leaves”. True, I’m not doing life-saving work, but I suppose if I edited medical journals it would be. At least my work is educational for others.

A month ago I was thinking about buying a new laptop. I was still considering it up until today. I was actually considering going for a full fledged laptop instead of a netbook and just dishing out the extra cash. And now I’m questioning if I should. I guess I’ll still save up for it and we’ll see how it goes. I hate feeling this way.